For quite a few years this invisible force would tighten around my throat when it was time to talk about my religion. Yes, my beautiful, perfect, and glorious religion—Islam, and I would dare hesitate.
Shame on me.
Don’t get me wrong-if a teacher spoke falsely about Islam, I would definitely correct them, or if someone asks me a direct question, I would answer. But that’s where the conversation ended, and I would make no effort in trying to continue.
I always had the false impression that my deen was not well enough and so I developed an insecurity about it– that maybe a few more years of working on it I will be a little bit more knowledgeable and will not be so incompetent to speak on behalf of the most beautiful religion in the world. I was afraid that my words would give injustice and thought I would do best to remain silent. But as someone beautifully quoted at a recent workshop; “Do not wait until your deen is perfected to give Da’wah, but rather giving Da’wah is a means of perfecting your deen.”
And this is true—in my Psychology of Education class we learnt that the more you speak about a subject, not only do you retain the information faster, but you end up believing in it more-which makes you more fluent in the subject and would grasp any opportunity to speak about a subject you are so comfortable with.
And how exactly was I supposed to get comfortable with speaking when everything I know is just there, floating around in my brain, with no one benefiting but myself? What excuse would I give to my creator when on the Day of Judgment I will be asked why I didn’t do my duty in giving da’wah? Confidence issue? Nice try Noor…
But this has changed, and I have changed. And this blog post is to remind me that I’m stepping up my game! As long as I have 100% belief that the message I’m trying to convey is the truth, why am I constantly worried about being wrong?
Alhamdulilah for the workshop I attended. I left the room with my confidence boosted, and my love for Islam to soar higher than ever! I am so fortunate to have a religion that gives me peace of mind-it would be selfish to keep it all to myself. 🙂
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